Friday, May 05, 2006
http://relevantmagazine.com/pc_article.php?id=7172
i read this article this morning and it was what i needed. it describes me perfectly - especially today. i like being in my own world. it's not that i don't like the company of others, it's that i don't like the company of strangers. i don't like it when store employees ask me if i'm finding everything alright. i enjoy self-checkouts. if i see someone i recognize but don't think they'll recognize me, i avoid eye contact with them altogether. weird huh?
i'm not what you would call a people-person. Therefore i simply avoid any circumstances which i think will make me uncomfortable. i think it's probably because i'm not used to dealing with conflict and want to prevent it at all costs. but not all interaction with other people involves conflict and even if it does i should not shy away from it. but i do. and this happens more than it should. and it bothers me that i'm this way. to live this way is to live a self-centered life which is the exact opposite of the Christ-centered life i should be striving to live.
a former pastor of mine used to say (not that he coined the phrase, he just used it often) that God was more interested in our character than our comfort. yet i seem to be entirely too interested in my own comfort. i hate the term "comfort zone" but i seem to be firmly attached to mine. so my new goal is to get out of it more often. or maybe even make it larger. so little things like retail employees and blind dates don't make me nervous.
i read this article this morning and it was what i needed. it describes me perfectly - especially today. i like being in my own world. it's not that i don't like the company of others, it's that i don't like the company of strangers. i don't like it when store employees ask me if i'm finding everything alright. i enjoy self-checkouts. if i see someone i recognize but don't think they'll recognize me, i avoid eye contact with them altogether. weird huh?
i'm not what you would call a people-person. Therefore i simply avoid any circumstances which i think will make me uncomfortable. i think it's probably because i'm not used to dealing with conflict and want to prevent it at all costs. but not all interaction with other people involves conflict and even if it does i should not shy away from it. but i do. and this happens more than it should. and it bothers me that i'm this way. to live this way is to live a self-centered life which is the exact opposite of the Christ-centered life i should be striving to live.
a former pastor of mine used to say (not that he coined the phrase, he just used it often) that God was more interested in our character than our comfort. yet i seem to be entirely too interested in my own comfort. i hate the term "comfort zone" but i seem to be firmly attached to mine. so my new goal is to get out of it more often. or maybe even make it larger. so little things like retail employees and blind dates don't make me nervous.
// posted by ruth @ 7:44 AM 
